leave a window open.

ever since I was little, I have been reminded that friends will come and friends will go. this was always a concept that made more sense to me as I got older, having experienced this transition many times throughout junior high and high school. as we get older, we realize bit by bit who we are and what it is that we will become. through this process, changing friends is natural because you adapt to those that are more like you. as we change, our friends change. simple as that. granted, there are those select few that you will always have, and that will never change, but for the most part we continuously close and open doors to new experiences, people and overall changes.

this summer has been the first door closing that really hit home. I have temporarily lost one of my best friends. who is to say if we will ever be as close again, or if we have run our course and another door has closed. either way, it has shown me how strong I really am. I'm not wonder woman by any means, but this has shown me that I am capable of one thing I have never been fully capable of: change. I have learned to lean on others when I am struggling. I have learned that I can count on people, but they all reach the point when they may need to close my door, even though I don't think it is the right time. I have done a lot of thinking lately. more than I can recall ever doing on the same subject. I have learned that I am BEYOND grateful for everything that I was able to share with this best friend of mine. the laughs, tears, anger, and general time spent with them. I have come to realize that God truly does have a plan for each of us, and that means that we have to let Him act in ways that we may not see fit at the time, but may be in our best interest.

I'm not saying it has been, or will be, easy. this has been one of the hardest summers of my life. my faith has been tested, my trust and who I know for certain I can count on. I have learned to relax and not jump to conclusions. I have also learned to accept the things I cannot change. trusting God is the most difficult thing I have ever done because I cannot see what He is doing, or what He intends to do down the road. but there is one thing I know for certain: He will never let me down. He will never leave me stranded, helpless or alone. He has given me friends that have stood by my side through thick and thin and have never wasted time asking questions when I needed them. He has also given me the best parents anyone could ask for. the support system He has graced me with is outstanding.

my point is this:
things may not work out how you would like them too. but things will always work themselves out if they are meant to be. God has a plan.

so when a door closes, and another doesn't seem to be opening... leave a window open. let God in and see what wonderful things He can do in your life, both through you and for you.

Psalm 9:9-10
The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.