music

music = life. radio, iPod, CD, Spotify, Pandora, YouTube... it's a slight addiction when you have all of the above running at some point or another, or simultaneously, throughout the day, all day, every day. i'm sure i'm not alone, but it seems like i need music to function regularly. i cannot handle silence under any circumstances. i get too fidgety. people have told me that it's because i'm avoiding my own thoughts, or trying to run away from something that hurts or makes me upset. i just think it's because it's soothing, dance-y and can relate to my life.

on the off  chance that i can't find something to say, music says it for me. along to a catchy tune. over the years, i have found numerous songs with lyrics that relate to what events i'm going through in my life. whether it's a hot summer day and i'm driving around town with friends jammin' to Taio Cruz, Justin Bieber or insert catchy artist here, or it's a breakup and i choose country music because, well lets face it, that's 90% of all country songs. there's a song for every scenario.

i played the violin for two years, 5th and 6th grade. i had always loved music before then, but i believe that's what really put me over the edge. being able to play music. it may not have been the music i listen to on a daily basis, but having the ability to produce music myself. through junior high and high school, my music library multiplied, then doubled, then grew rapidly out of control. i can't get enough. new bands/artists, new genres, new songs... they just kept coming. it became a way of life to have music playing constantly. i never go anywhere without it. i can't DO anything without it... cleaning, homework, working out, sitting in my room and just staring at the ceiling... there is always music. always.

it began as background noise, just something to stir the air. then i began to relate to the lyrics, which eventually escalated to relating songs to my life, seeking them out to explain to others. though i'm not really one for telling people every detail of every aspect of my life, music opened doors to expressing myself. whether it was song lyrics as a status on facebook, or playing certain songs in certain situations to give hints as to what mood i was in. i didn't create it, but i embraced it.

"your lips keep tryin' to speak, but you just can't find the words..."
-Lady Antebellum