why?

why is one of the most popular questions people have been known to ask.

why can't i go?
why won't this work?
why did he/she do that?

what i want to know is why people suffer.

i received a phone call today from my dad. he told me that my cousin had suffered from a cerebral hemorrhage and that she has bleeding in her brain. she had continuous headaches and nothing was thought to be out of the ordinary, until she woke up and was found on the ground, holding her head, by her grandma. they rushed her to the ER and she has now been put in intensive care. they are doing the best they can to keep her well. she's been induced into a coma, being woken up every hour to test her vitals. she's making some progress, but nothing will be known for sure until monday because they can't do anything to check her brain during the weekends. they believe it may be a birth defect.

why her? why now? she's getting married soon. this isn't fair. why must people that have done no wrong be the ones to suffer? why must these things happen out of the blue when we least expect them and when they aren't deserved. if God loves us so much, why would he cause such stress and agony in our homes, to our family. it doesn't make sense to me. it never will.

a similar situation happened a few weeks ago to my friend. she lost one of her closest friends and was a wreck for a while. i now completely understand how she felt, how that vicious strike of information can do such damage. why such good people? he was going to lead worship at a youth camp for the weekend, got in a car wreck and was flown to a hospital in California. he didn't make it..

what i don't understand is why these series of events happen at such inopportune times. she's made it this long without anything going severely wrong. so why now? now that she's planning a wedding, doing better than she ever has for herself. she's happy. granted, her life expectancy has increased significantly, and as of right now, she's doing really well, but i still don't understand why it needed to happen.

i know we shouldn't question God, or his authority. but it's times like these when i really second guess His decisions.